Huntington Life

February 3rd


Well well well.

Guess who is back ??

ME

Ok I'm embarrassed it's been so long. So we'll skip the typical apologetic paragraph that  you are probably tired of reading and move on to what's going on in my life~

Where to begin ? Well I am still in Huntington, IN. I am currently sitting in a coffee shop with two dear sisters in Christ of mine.
I just got done applying for a couple of jobs that one of my roommates found for me. I also just got done editing my cover letter.
Let's just say that what I just did defines my past month and a half ! I've been surrounded by friends, and some I could call family who have been nothing but supportive, encouraging, loving , and just présent in my life !
I could go into détails of places Ive applied to, and dreams I've had, and hopes and people I've met, and yadiyadiya but as of now, nothing is certain.
I am still stuck in this hole of uncertainty. The clock is ticking. It's february and I have no idea what is going to happen to me 3 weeks from now (which is when I would have to leave the U.S)
I've felt a very wide range of émotions  in the past month. I've just been so joyful and full of peace since I've been in Huntington. It is my home and I long to stay hère and give back to this town what it's given to me.
The people hère are passionate, loving, and refreshing, and I want nothing more than to invest my time, life, energy, and passion alongside with my community to make the world a better place starting by working within our hearts and our community as brothers and sisters in Christ there to challenge each other, encourage each other, pray for each other, and support each other with any possible means.
However, I've also felt extremely discouraged and lost with the situation I am still in. I've gotten tired of answering the same question " What are you doing hère ? " I've gotten tired of explaining my situation, Ive gotten tired of receiving rejection letters in the mail, I've gotten tired of seeking in vain, and more than anything I've gotten tired of the intense silence that overwhelms me.

What do I mean by silence ? Just this created distance in my heart between my Father and I. He is challenging me, continually and daily, but I sometimes fail to respond to his challenges. I get tired, and I give up. I put my arms down and feel defeated.

I still believe and know in my heart that He has a plan for me. But after doing what it seems like I should be, I've gotten unjustly impatient with Him and decided to sit and do nothing.
It's just a phase, and I know better. I know not to give up. I know not to stop searching. I know more applications need to be filled. I know more phone calls need to be made. I know more goals need to be met. I know more prayers need to be sent.
I know all of this and as my mother would say " Why do you sit and do nothing, when you know ? You say you know, so do something ! "

She is absolutely right every single time that I hear her say that. I'm trying. I am , but it isn't easy.
So in a nutshell, this is where I'm at. Spiriutally and mentally. I serve a victorious God and know He will pull me out of this, but in the meantime I could definitely use your prayers
Despite my silence, I know you all have been thinking and praying for me so thank you. Blessings to you !



Dorina