Craziness in my life!

Hello....

Where to begin...I guess I can start where I last left off. I am rejoicing in the Lord through hardship. I mean I don't know what's happening in my life but I do know God is here in the midst of it all.
I woke up with the song: "I will sing of your mercy that leads me through valleys of sorrow to rivers and joy. Halleluijah."

I am feeling so many mixed emotions right now, it's unreal. I feel peace. I feel fear. (big contradiction). I feel excitement. I feel sadness. I feel hope. I feel joy. I feel anxiety, slight panic, a bit of anger (a very small amount), confusion, astonishment, uneasyness...and so soooo much more!!

Here's the deal. I am leaving the U.S.A as of January 2nd when my permit ends. Everything happened so suddenly and I am still not fully understand of why, but as I said before I have faith (SO MUCH) that God will take care of me and this situation and once again prove Himself in miraculous ways!

Here's my plan for the next month: I have two weeks left of work in which I will be in Louisiana for the first week We have the busiest week yet. We have two shows in two schools each day of the week. It won't be extremely stressful, but it will be physically exhausting.
After that, we will be in San Antonio. We only have one show that week, which will give us time to work on our equipment before heading back!!
So after that we drive down to California, which ends my time with Camfel Productions. It's been a challenging but good journey for sure.
In california, I will pick up my car and belongings (yyeeessss) and head to Colorado to spend Christmas with loved ones :) Once that happens, I will then drive to Indiana and spend a little bit of time there with more loved ones. and THEN January 2nd of 2011 I will be flying out to God knows where.

This is where I need you. I need your support. I need encouragement. I need prayer. I trust that as brothers and sisters of Christ or as amazing friends you will provide that for me, and I am grateful for that.
It's been such a blessing to have been able to blog and see the support I have through the body of Christ and ones who just care for me.
It's been hard because I've been bouncing around from motel to motel, and I've been denied brothers and sisters in Christ and a stable community, and I've been really lonely, and I've lacked that consistency that any human being needs. In the midst of that I've found hope, joy, peace, and much growth through my relationship with God and even through many relationships I've made along the way or had already established before this journey began.
I am eternally grateful for that.

I am listening to myself as I type and I can't help but chuckle a bit because this blog entry sounds like it's the end of my life haha. It's the end of this journey but the beginning of a new one, one which I intend on still sharing with you all :)

The book I told you all about the other day was most definitely God sent.

Yesterday, I read about the hope we have in Christ through the gifts He's given us. Things like:

"And because we know Christ  is alive, we have hope for the present and hope for life beyond the grave." (Billy Graham)

and

"God dwells in eternity, but time dwells in God. He has ready live all our tomorrows as he has lived all our yesterdays." (A. W. Tozer)

and

"Other men see only a hopeless end, but the Christian rejoices in an endless hope." Gilbert M. Beeken

have truly encouraged me in the midst of all of this.

This morning I read more on the subject of optimism and the power it has on us. You know it's all about pespective. We all have troubles. Mine aren't any worse than any of the ones you might be going through or any one else might be going through for that matter, but the beauty of it all is that we have faith. That thing inside of us that allows the dark to become light, the sad to become joy, the sorrow to become hope, the disbelief becomes belief. You know?
The optimisitic outlook that we as believers have makes the entire difference!

Romans 8:25 says "But if we look forward to something we don't have yet, we must wait patiently and confidently."

We can either sit on our butts in our pity box (which I've done far to many times, and will most likely do again!) and act like it is the end of the world, and cry our sorrows away OR we can rejoice, sing, praise God for allowing us to be going through whatever it is and count our blessings through it.
I am most definitely not an optimistic person by nature. You can ask anyone, but Christ has this amazing way of changing me by His grace, and convicting me.

"If you're overly worried by the inevitable ups and downs of life, God wants to have a litte chat with you. After all, God has made promises to you that He intends to keep. And if your life has been transformed by God's only begotten Son then you,  as a recipient of God's grace have every reason to live courageaously."

I can't think of it right now, or find it. But this morning God reminded me of His promises. Whether it was while reading the Bible (i read a little bit of Psalm 119), or through this book, or just Him speaking to me through His Holy Spirit. Either way aside from this verse, God reminded me of His amazing plans for me, and His promises for my life and I fully trust that He plans on making them happen. I don't know how or when, but I trust and I will continue to do that.

I had a really strange dream last night. A lot of random but magnificent creatures surrounded me. It was surreal. Clearly just a dream, but it was amazing. I remember taking a lot of pictures of them :)
However, part of this dream had to do with me being a leader. I led a big group of people of all ages through a path and had a key to a place of comfort and safety.
I don't know why I am sharing this dream. I don't even know what it means. But maybe someday it will make sense. Or maybe it never will. Who knows.

Anywho....I believe I've shared enough for now. I will keep you all posted on the evolution of this "crisis" if you will, in my life. ;)

Be blessed, count your blessings, rejoice in the Lord and don't forget how much He adores you.

Love,
DJO