Alive!

Another day spent in Olathe, KS

We chose this motel because it was near a mall, and a movie theatre, and multiple restaurants.
Unfortunately...I am beyond broke (Pray for my money management. haha) and so I am surrounded by temptations.
Thus I force myself to stay inside, which can get very lonely and old after a while.
Thankfully, living in Colorado without a car prepared me for days such as these.
TV, Internet, sleep, eat.
Pretty sad huh?
well yea it is...days like these make me feel like I'm dead on the inside. Like I am useless to the earth, Not bringing any one anything.
I want to feel alive and purposeful.

So for any one feeling this way, I just wanted to share a Chapter from the book "No wonder they call Him Savior" by Max Lucado.
He describes the process of the death and resurrection of Christ in a very unique way. It is quite powerful actually. At the end of it, I remember that I am alive though Christ. And that He's gone through all of the emotions I go through daily. Even though I don't feel useful because I am not interacting with people, humans, or doing anything, I do matter and am alive this great moment in History happened.

                           ALIVE!

Road. Dark. Stars. Shadows. Four. Sandals. Robes. Quiet. Suspense. Grove. Trees. Alone. Questions. Anguish. "Father!" Sweat. God. Man. God-man. Prostrate. Blood. "NO!" "Yes." Angels. Comfort.
Footsteps. Torches. Voices. Romans. Surprise. Swords. Kiss. Confusion. Betrayal. Fearful. Run! Bound. Wrists. Marching.
Courtyard. Priests. Lamps. Sanhedrin. Caiaphas. Sneer. Silk. Arrogance. Beard. Plotting. Barefoot. Rope. Calm. Shove. Kick. Annas. Indignant.  Messiah? Trial. Nazarene. Confident. Question. Answer. Punch!
Peter. "Me?" Rooster. Thrice. Guilt.
Proceedings. Court. Rejection. Prosecute. Weary. Pale. Witnesses. Liars. Inconsistent. Silence. Stares. "Blasphemer!" Anger. Writhing. Bruised. Dirty. Fatigued. Guards. Spit. Blindfold. Mocking. Blows. Fire. Twilight.
Sunrise. Golden. Jerusalem. Temple. Passover. Lambs. Lamb. Worshipers. Priests. Messiah. Hearing. Fraud. Prisoner. Waiting. Standing. Shifting. Strategy. "Pilate!" trap. Murmurs. Exit.
Stirring. Parade. Crowd. Swell. Romans. Pilate. Toga. Annoyed. Nervous. Officers. Tunics. Spears. Silence. "Charge?" "Blasphemy."Indifference." Ignore. (Wife. Dream.) Worry. Interview. Lips. Pain. Determined. "King?" "Heaven." "Truth." "Truth?" Sarcasm. (Fear.) "Innocent!" Roar. Voices. "Galilean!" "Galilee?" "Herod!"
9:00 AM. Marchers. Palace. Herod. Fox. Schemer. Paunchy. Crwon. Case. Scepter. Hall. Elegance. Silence. Manipulate. Useless. Vexed. Revile. Taunt. "King?" Robe. Theatrical. Cynical. Hateful. "Pilate!"
Marching. Uproar. Prisoner. Hushed. Pilate. "Innocent!" Belam ."Barabbas!" Riot. Despair. Christ. Bare. Ruins.Wall. Back. Whip. Slash. Scourge. Tear. Bone. Moan. Flesh. Rhythm. Silence. Whip! SIlence. Whip! Silence. Whip. Thorns. Stinging. Blind. Laughter. Jeering .Scepter. Slap. Governor. Distraught. (Almost.) Eyes. Jesus. Decision. Power. Freedom? Threats. Looks. Yelling. Weak. Basin. Water. Swayed. Compromise. Blood. Guilt.
Soldiers. Thieves. Crosspiece. Shoulder. Heavey. Beam. Heavy. Sun. Stagger. Incline. Houses. Shops.Faces. Mourners. Murmurs. Pilgrims. Women. Tumble. Cobblestone. Ehaustion. Gasping. Simon. Pathertic. Golgotha.
Skull. Calvary. Crosses. Execution. Death. Noon. Tears. Observers. Wails. Wine.Nude. Bruised. Swollen.Crossbeam. Sign. Ground. Nails. Pound. Pound. Pierced. Contorted. Thirst. Terrible. Grace. Writhing. Raised. Sponge. Tear.Taunts. Forgiveness. Dice. Gambling. Darkness.
Absurdity.
Death. Life.
Pain. Peace.
Condemn. Promise.
Nowhere. Somewhere.
Him. Us.
"Father!" Robbers. Paradise.Wailing.Weeping. Stunned. "Mother." Compassion. Darkness. "My God!" Afraid. Scapegoat. Wilderness. Vinegar. "Father." Silence. Sigh. Death. Relief.
Earthquake. Cemetery. Tombs. Bodies. Mystery.Curtain. Spear. Blood. Water. Spices. Linen. Tomb. Fear. Waiting. Despiar. Stone. Mary. Running. Maybe? Peter. John. Belief. Enlightenment. Truth. Mankind. ALive. ALive. ALIVE!